Meditations on being alone

We all need our fellow man, we all need our Samaritan.

That being said, being alone is a powerful problem we all encounter. Even while interacting with others we choose to keep our thoughts to ourselves. Until we announce them. During this breakup the things that are hardest for me are to maintain a healthy living schedule. Get up on time, go to bed on time, etc. These things are not always easy.

I hate being alone, I always prefer to have someone to talk to, whether it be about life, chemistry, sports etc. Being alone causes ones mind to focus on things they necessarily wouldn't focus on. Music doesn't help much right now, songs always change, and with it, their perceived message.

A happy song can make me sad, and a sad song can be empowering and a jazz song might make me angry etc. The intent of the song isn't fullfilling the desired emotion anymore. Black is white, up is down. Determined Barry is indifferent and apathetic.

However being alone does give me the ability to hopefully focus on the required tasks at hand. Or screw them up completely.